confessions of a tired mommy.

This is for all of you that think my life is blissful and filled with perfection!

• Tonight I decided to be the fun mom and let my kids have popcorn for their bedtime snack.  I went upstairs to put Peter to bed and came down to this nightmare of a room.  Did I mention Jeremy is studying late tonight?
• I am tired.  I'm pretty sure it's because I haven't been to the gym in oh... several weeks... I'm sure I would have more energy if I worked that back into my daily routine. 
• I got upset with the checker at Wal*Mart the other day because she made me go back and do a price check instead of doing it herself.  I actually said, "I'm pretty sure that is your job... this store is absolutely ridiculous."  On the way out, some lady called me an a** hole for no reason.  I am avoiding that store at all costs from now on.
• Jayne isn't potty trained yet.  I take full blame.  She is beyond ready.  I'm totally holding her back because I just can't handle the accidents.  It's the only thing on my list next week.  (Besides maybe going back to the gym... we'll see how that goes.)
• I repeat the phrase, "They are just children... don't expect too much from them." in my head at least a dozen times a day.
• Peter still wakes up at least once or twice a night.  His crib is only two feet away from our bed because there is no where else to put it.  I would love to sleep train him... but whenever we try, he ends up wheezing up a storm from all the excitement.  He spends half his night in his crib and the other half in our bed.  Maybe the interrupted sleep is also a contributor to why I am so tired all the time.
• The last three days I have taken a shower in the morning and put on a clean pair of pajamas instead of my normal jeans and a t-shirt.  Not because I'm sick or anything... I just want to be comfortable.  I even picked up my kids from school in them... slippers and all.  I'm sure they were thoroughly humiliated and will be scarred for life.
• Getting my kids into the car each morning is the worst part of my day.  It is so flippin hard to get five kids shoes and coats on.  Even when four of them can do it with no help from me.  I have to remind myself not to lose my temper with them every morning when I pray.
• Jayne has been talking in this baby voice ever since we got home from Utah.  It was cute for about 3 minutes... now it's just plain annoying and I can't get her to stop.
• Grace and Lincoln have figured out how to push each others buttons.  They are constantly bickering about something.  If it starts up tomorrow (which it undoubtedly will) then I am going to make them sit on the steps and say one nice thing about each other for every step.  That was the worst punishment growing up... but I think it worked.
• I am more looking forward to sitting by my husband during Sacrament Meeting than I am for the Primary Program in a few weeks.

I feel better already.  Now here's some things that made me smile today so that I don't sound like the most negative person on the planet.

• My BFF bought me lunch from Chipotle today.  She even hung out with me even though her husband came home early which never happens.  She is the best. 
• I had big plans to make my YW mirrors with vinyl lettering on them that said, "You is kind.  You is smart. You is important." (from The Help) for my lesson on Individual Worth this Sunday.  I couldn't cut the vinyl small enough so the phrase wouldn't fit.  I was really sad... but decided to re-watch this video that I'll be playing during my lesson and decided to make them say, "You are glorious" instead.  (I love President Uchtdorf!) 
• We made an offer on an endo practice last night and we found out today that they accepted it!
• Graham was the first kid in the entire school to spot the hidden tiger today.  Apparently that's really cool.  It was hiding on the ceiling fan in the front office.
• Lincoln told me that I'm the best mom ever tonight even though I raised my voice way too much today.
• Jeremy sent me a text tonight that said he missed me.  That means a lot because he loathes texting.
• I made a yummy dinner even though Jeremy wasn't home.  Usually we have pancakes or cereal... so that was a happy moment for me.
• I washed, dried, folded and put away 8 batches on laundry all in one day.  I'm a rockstar.

See, I'm normal.